Our niece is getting married in Paris today (5/16), and I'm sitting here in tears...
feeling both selfish and sorry for m'self...
We planned on going, and we were also going to go to Germany after the wedding, so I could revisit where I was born, and where I grew up (something that has been a long time dream of mine)...
Also, since niece's Mom died 2 years ago, I was going to be her 'Mom' for the wedding, as I'm her closest female relative. And she is SUCH a neat kiddo ~ I love her to bits ~
But then the husband mentioned that the trip would eat deeply into our funds to someday move the away from this hellhole we're living in (Yuck-berg).
And I just CAN NOT let go of THAT hope, and dream ~ of getting back to my beloved ocean (if not in CA, then at least in OR)
And so I had to make the choice between a one-time event, and the dream of my life.
Life won.
But right now, I would give my eye-teeth to be standing next to R.
I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me ~ I'm doing enough of that m'self!!!! ~ but I could sure use some cyber hugs...
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2 hours ago
6 comments:
One big cyber-hug coming your way!
That sucks. When pressed with life's decisions, I try to remember the difference between what I want now versus what I want most.
Who knows, maybe you will be able to go on your trip someday.
{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}} Bobbie
(((((HUGS)))))
Big hugs!!!!!
Oh no! I know you really really wanted to go HUGS to ya big time!
Oh yuck - hate it when you have to make choices between two dreams!
Hope the wedding went well and she sends you lots of photos.
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